Waiting and waiting...

I feel like so much of this journey is waiting..First you wait for O then you wait to test and then it's waiting for AF and repeat. Im currently CD 17 and waiting to O (I normally don't O until CD 20-22) and I'm terrified that it will be another annovulatory cycle. Im praying less and less for it to be a successful cycle and more and more just to be an ovulatory cycle. Sometimes I feel like I'm going to lose my mind with all the trying and the it not happening. Hopefully this time next week Im reporting Im 3/4 dpo.